My thoughts from this week...

Sometimes, I am not the mother I wish I was. This week has been just like that. I often think of the title of a children's story book - 'The day mummy turned into a monster', where the mother in the story progressively becomes more and more like a horrible green bogie monster as her children become more and more difficult to handle. The story does have a happy ending, I hasten to add. It's that happy ending that keeps me going. I hope my children will forgive my frustrations with them, my overly high expectations, my grumpy outbursts. They truly are the most important things in to world to me, besides Jason, of course.

It seems the timing is just a little too coincidental, more like a tender mercy, that this weeks Mormon Message is a talk from Elder Holland, to boost my soul. I feel as though Elder Holland speaks directly to me, I find I am so touched and moved by all his talks. These words have come just at the right time for me.

"Yours is the work of salvation, and therefore you will be magnified, compensated, made more than you are, better than you are and better than you have ever been... The very fact that you have been given such a responsibility is everlasting evidence of the trust you Father in Heaven has in you. He is blessing you and He will bless you even - no, especially - when your days and your nights may be the most challenging."

All I need do is rely on him more, rely on him forever!